Walking Around on March 24, 2010

I started my day walking to a USPS mail drop box. I finally filled out my Census form and wanted to mail it in. Then a quick stop at the Capitol Hill Library http://www.spl.org/default.asp?pageID=branch_open&branchID=6

To my surprise, I ran into Emily and Lindy. I told Emily that Eva would want to join us for working on cover letters and resumes. Which I need to work on before we meet. I should have some type of rough draft ready.

After CAP I went up to Volunteer park where I climbed the water tower. It took me at least 1.5 minutes. I forgot I had a stopwatch on my phone before today. I don't know if 1.5 minutes is a good time or not. Still not running all the way up. Of course, I had been pushing myself up until I hit the park.

Walking past the park, I hit the forest. I took the right hand fork this time. It was a nice walk down some steps. No woman putting on her make-up this time. Got to 23rd Avenue and walked past Montlake Public Library.

http://www.spl.org/default.asp?pageID=branch_open&branchID=18

I wandered around for a while and eventually got to Top Pot donuts in Wedgewood. The Chocolate Bar and Orange cream soda hit the spot. That was around 15:30.

NET http://www.spl.org/default.asp?pageID=branch_open&branchID=20

After sitting around and reading for 45 minutes, I got up to leave and ran into Sheri.

Stopped to use the computer at GLK http://www.spl.org/default.asp?pageID=branch_open&branchID=11 And figure out where I was going from here. It turns out I walked around the lake.

And then went to Wallingford.
WAL had closed by the time I got there but it was still nice to figure out where it is located.

WAL http://www.spl.org/default.asp?pageID=branch_open&branchID=28

Same thing with Fremont Library. It was closed but I finally found the branch.

FRE http://www.spl.org/default.asp?pageID=branch_open&branchID=10

After this, I went to see the Troll and walk across the Auroa Avenue Bridge.

I was hoping to keep the question of walking across the Aurora Avenue Bridge as an existential question. But I finally walked across it. I was not sure I could do it.

Why I am walking

I am walking around in an attempt to get someone out of my head. Unfortunately, no matter how much I walk, those thoughts are still in my head. Sometimes with reinforcements. But I don't want to stop really. I just need a change in pattern of thoughts.

That someone in my head is myself. And no matter where I walk or how I walk, that person follows.

Relationship books and other sources say physical exercise is part of the cure but I find that the more I exercise, the more I think those thoughts that I am trying to get away from. I think those sources of advice are wrong. Except....exercise focuses ones thoughts.

Of course the last time, it took ten years to get over someone. But then again, if someone were to ask, I would probably admit to still having feelings for Laura from kindergarten. And that was almost 30 years ago. That is scary to think about. I wonder whatever happened to Laura. I wonder if I could find her if I tried. Would I try? Trying to find someone from 30 years ago might be difficult.

Getting out of Neutral

Yesterday, I took a first step to getting out of neutral as regarding my career. I actually sent in a cover letter and resume for a different job at SPL. I know I sent in a bad cover letter and resume but that is okay. This is more than I have done in the last seven years about a new job. Now I need to get a new cover letter and resume done for the Continuous Recruitment Process. This may be the easier one to do which is why I have not done it.

I like being a Page and moving up to a library associate I or II is going back to being like a retail clerk. I did retail in my late teens and early twenties. I am not sure I want that same job again. It would mean more money, I guess. I have been putting it off until August of this year. I do not want to change my life too much until after my birthday.